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When you try your best, but you don’t succeed. When you get what you want, but not what you need. When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep. And when you lose something you can’t replace…Stuck in reverse.
(Source: iam-colorblind)
My lovely school friend lent me her twilight saga books, except Eclipse.
I loved the moives. I remember watching it when I was thirteen years old. It came out in cinimas November, 2008. I watched it at home after a couple of months of its realease, on TV. I loved the movie. I didnt understand it as much as i do now. As back then i was just a thirteen year old. I cant recall what i felt or thought when i first watched the movie.
But, now, i’ve watched most of Twilight Saga.
I did not understand Eclipse even though i watched new moon. I only watched half of it online as it started to bore me, it was a let down; Even though i have not given it a chance.
And lastly
It was wonderful. I loved it.
Back to what i was saying. After i watched Breaking Dawn. I wanted to read the books. So i am doing so now. I have just finished Twilight. I think that the book is so much better than the film! I was half way through Twilight, and I decided to watch the film to re-jog my imagination when reading the book so I can picture it how the film displays it. As i was watching Twilight, i got very frustrated, The film is nothing like the book ( Or books ). The book(s). They are completely different. The film feels like its spontaneously cutting scenes out like you are playing it on a old VCR. At points i was actually shouting at the screen.
So. It makes me think. People/Books/Films/Objects Etc; That get incredibly popular world-wide. There is always a large group of individuals who dwell on it. Mostly because its popularity. Or an individual opinion that some people, actually do not like Twilight. But from my perspective most, defiantly a majority of them judge Twilight on the Film that was created. They dont get a second opinion and read the book(s). They would realise how different things are displayed. How many emotions are displayed in words. Books are incredible; Because writers have to describe..every single movement a character makes, every single emotion they feel. Books describe places, objects, feelings in so much depth. You can actually get lost in a book. It opens up your mind. It makes me see things in different perspectives. Sometimes i spontaneously act like the character im reading about. Like the character is inspiring me, without myself taking notice.
back to my point. Who reads these days? Many people dont read. It makes me feel quite disapointed in humans.
Read the book(s) before you see the film(s)
Watch the film(s) and read the book(s)
It makes a big difference. I’m not making this discussion just to make other individuals change their opinions on certain films/books they dislike. Im just trying to let others see from my perspective.
I can’t wait to read the other books. Even though the media has made me sort of feel off put with the characters and their relationships like Edward & Bella. Or make me dislike certain characters and their personality. As recently i’ve been researching on some unanswered questions i was confused about in the book.Other wise, the book twilight was my first successfully read book! I feel proud of myself!
Claudia.
(Source: iam-colorblind)
Why do people use the status ‘Virgin’ as an insult? Pahaha, I find it slightly absurd that young people spontaneously make others feel like its some-thing abnormal. So has it came to terms with our society, going from being a slut is an insult, to not being a slut is now, a insult?
Sorry. The more people you sleep with, the more higher ranked you are.
Im not a virgin. and im not low enough to degrade someone for their sexualitly;
Having patience. I respect that in others.
(Source: iam-colorblind)
Good-morning Followers, I havent blogged in a while as in my fathers house we have no internet connection. This is due from not paying the bills, But its fine, im not as frustrated as i use to be when this problem occurs, as i now prefer a little break from the computer.
I’m currently at my mothers home, she’s just making me break-fast. I don’t think I’ve ever told you guys that i am going to start to post more personal posts, As i have a vibe that Tumblr is just another social website. As i did join Tumblr to start ‘blogging’. I just look at my blog achieve and its all photos. I rarely use to think to my-self ”whats the point typing out paragraphs about how i feel, and whats happened. If no-ones going to read it”. As before i never use to get feedback.
Recently though i have had lovely comments of support (from only a couple of followers) about my text posts, whether im talking about my future or family problems. Especially Jeffrey;
Jeffrey always pays attention to my posts and always makes me smile :) He Honestly provides me with good advice and always makes me see the good in things. I love him as a follower. So this is just a little thank-you to Jeffrey!
Last saturday
As you all know, I worked in a hairdressers, in-fact apparently the most benefited hairdressers you can get in Northampton. I’ve been working there since April this year. As i did my work experience there in March for two weeks. I loved it there, They loved me. I volunteered one time to do a Saturday, And the boss Julie accepted. I did that to enhance my probabilities of getting a saturday job there. To be honest, it was quite ironic and lucky of me to do my work experience exactly when a young lady who was a saturday girl, at hensmans, decided to leave to join sixth form. From that, there was a free space for another saturday girl, luckly i got the job. This was my first job. Since then…I’ve never had a saturday off since April. So here i am sitting on a wooden table, with a mug of capi. Last week around this time i was cleaning the stock shelf.
As you’ve all got the message i no longer work there..The last month or two at work..has been bumpy, i try to stay out of the ‘clumsy stage’ as that always sets off trouble. But i made a few, lets say..Mistakes. Eg: Flooding to laundry room…twice..in two weeks. And also been caught eating hot chocolate paste. Besides from the little accidents, i am a hard worker, its in my family’s blood to work hard, play hard.
So i gave it my all at Hensmans, Sometimes i got the vibe that i was not prettier enough to work at Hensmans or fashionably enough. I did not have any nice clothes to wear. and i got hot and sweaty at work. I think in a hairdressers its like that, a-bit competitive between all your co-workers. I had no intentions to work in a hairdressers anyway, its just not me. I mainly got the job for the experience and the money.
Anway back on topic, as ive explained the little ups and downs, A lady who works there, Told me she’ll be keeping an eye on me, as Hensmans are going through a ”tough” time, apparently ”ressesion” . I did’nt fall for it. They mentioned a few weeks back that if they dont save money they will have to cut back on staff. Obviously the saturday girls would go first as we contribute the least to the business. I thought it was just a threat, But a week later, The young lady told me she will keep an eye on my for two weeks and see how i get on. Whats that suppose to mean? Obviously i forgot about the situation and just causally worked every saturday as i do, but with a little more concentration and a more organised mind. Two weeks came and she had the talk with me. She told me i was doing fine, and there had been no more ‘incidents’. But there was something else. I remember having an argument with a girl recently, who is not a very nice person. She did work expericene at Hensmans to and unfortunately she did not get the job because she lacked social skills and stamina. She insulted me deeply during an argument, and i just made it clear to this ladette that i stand my ground when it comes to people degrading me and pointing the finger.
It turned out that she was the sister of an employer of hensmans who i enjoy to work with. I felt my gut sink when i heard they were related. I couldnt even believe how a low, insensitive slut could be related to such a lovely, delicate petitie young lady. But i always tell my self.. Its a small world. Be nice to everyone you meet, regardless.
So baiscally This lady told me i lost my place in Hensmans in the nicest way possible. When actually this woman isnt the nicest of people, so i dont know why she put on an act instead of getting to the ugly truth like shes always does.
When i heard i was losing my job, i cried in the toilet, secretly.
But when i actually got told its my last saturday there last saturday…Yes i was upset and ever so angry. But then again i was relieved, So relieved. I dont know what im going to do without £25 every saturday in my pocket, ive gone from that to nothing. but i dont know where my sense of care is gone?
Oh it doesnt matter, i shouldnt sweat it. As my father saids..Its my firts job!
No worries, About a thing :)
(Source: iam-colorblind)
Do you ever stay seated and read the closing credits for a movie?
Hopefully my name will be in one, one day. I’m only 15. ( well 16 in 66 days, 9 hours, 2 minutes, 16 seconds) But I’m really trying to get my head around with what I’d like to be when I’m older. A dream job. A job id be dedicated too, and could never get tired of the years upon years of the same task. Because I need to slightly work harder for other GCSE’S in school that could help me get the job I want.
I feel like the country/government makes you choose your future too early! I even think 17-18 is too soon also. Maybe its just because I find it quite scary…Scared of failing, scared of ending up somewhere that has: bad pay/or I’m just unhappy. I mean not many people reach their dream or life goal. I’ve never actually sat down with an adult and asked them what they wanted to be? or what they wanted to achieve in life? Or even use the word ‘dream’ with house, job, car and friends following with it! I’m sure that my father had higher expectations than being a lorry driver. I’m sure my mother did not want to go into catering, and end up working in the cold room in the NHS hospital.
Maybe I’m scared of being stuck some-where/place.. telling myself no its just a part time job, or no its just for now, i will go to college and study what i want. I will make it to UNI. Its just very frustrating how many people don’t achieve their dream job. Its so common, that I’m worried it would happen to me. Enough with the deep thoughts, Scientists have proven that they are bad for you. So let me go through with you guys what I think would be a dream job: Everyone when they are little dream to be an astronaut, or a teacher. I sure did, then when you come into teens, you dream about being a model or a football player. I sure did, ( but an Actress ).
Now I’m 15, and all my life like many others … have illusions of ourself’s with these great expectations in the work industry. I don’t know if i will change my mind as i mature/grow up, But I do hope I don’t. By the way.. i do not want to be them people who plan out their entire life. ‘Oh I would like 3 kids in a cottage with a Spanish husband .. blah blah blah’ what is the point? its unlikely it would happen, also even if it does happen, how boring your life turned out just how you expected..expect the unexpected. And appreciate it.
When im older hopefully I would not change my mind but id like to work in the media industry>Movies and films. Films have always fascinated me. Not just the story line, but the camera shots, the direction, organisation, special effects, scenery, the stars, The set and the crew! I remember going to to cinima and the credits quickly scanned through, and i spotted ‘ART DIRECTOR’ I researched a-bit today, about the sort of crew a film needs. The thing is im not amazing at illustrations, i wouldn’t even say talented. But i can draw. If that makes sense. I have a-lot of creativity in me that needs to be expressed.
So Closing Credits. An description from the BBC Website : Commissioning .> TV > Production > Credit Guidelines.
( I am not going to list them all Just the ones that relate to myself )
Animation, Camera, Costumes, Floor & Studio Management, Make-up, Lighting, Special Effects, Sound, Production, Vision Mixing & Visual effects, Special effects, Photography, Graphics and also my choosen criteria Design:
Design:
Art Director
Assistant Art Director (only in major productions)
Design / Production Design(er)
Designed by / Designer
Production Buyer
Properties / Props Buyer
Properties / Property Master
Set Designers
I would like to be the set designer. I can imagine my self, being an organsied person with ideas blossming, seeing my work in movies, working with amazing directors.
It would be my, dream job. What’s Yours?
Claudia.
(Source: iam-colorblind)
I really don’t know if someones hacking my account because i was the blame for my school blocking access to tumblr, LOL. Its blocked as ‘Pornography’ ..Oh right? maybe it was a Tuesday my teacher caught me on tumblr..every ict lesson i was just browsering it non stop, so ever since its blocked I’ve been using them proxy websites that are so crap. Maybe some Asian kid is trying to steal my details or some shit.
so yeah, i had to change my password but i had to access a link from my Hotmail to change it, but my hotmail was also blocked from ‘strange activity’ ironic right? so i couldnt access my hotmail no matter what, it kept saying it sent a email to confirm it is me to another hotmail of mine, but i got no messages. strangely everything worked on the laptop, and i finally got my tumblr back i nearly had a mental breakdown, thinking about losing all my posts, follwers, blog, eveything D: I love you guys, dont forget that! ♥
(Source: iam-colorblind)
Friday
night i went incredibly late to bed for work in the morning, i was dreading waking up, but actually i wasnt tired one bit, i was a little bit frightened i must amit waking up and getting ready on my own as the following night i watched paranormal activity 3, i havent watched the others, but by far, the most scariest movie ive ever seen *_* I hate things to do with paranormal, only because i actually have belief in spirits.
Saturday
was good, i did not mess up at work, as the last two week i flooded the laundry room by the dishwasher over flowing. Had a good day, until i went to collect my wages, and had been decreased by £5.04 a month, just after it has been increased by 77p, what on earth? So instead of getting a good 100 quid a month i now will be getting 94.96 to me that is a very very very big change, i need exactly £100 a month, Its just my luck. { i dont get any other money by parents, family etc} So yes, i am very upset.
Sunday
I had a nice day I guess, I had a horrible headache though due to arguments, swearing, family members acting like animals, etc. But me and my baba baked a lovely cake for my ex-best-friends birthday party, { i recently made up with her in the summer, around august, we wasn’t friends for about a year } I brought the ingredients with my own money, and a bunch of flowers for my Godfather who is a little under the weather :) I mentioned i brought the ingredients with my own money, because i actually i have nothing, i get 100 a month ( well i use to ¬_¬ ) and i actually have no clothes, products, luxury’s etc etc. So yes, while i was shopping for them in Morrison’s with my little list, i felt like an independent adult, I can wait to be an adult ( yes i CAN wait, as i enjoy not having responsibilities)and do my food shopping weekly. Yes, so the cake was suppose to be a lovely red velvet cake! But it turned out brown :( i had great expectations to have this lovely bright contrasted red love heart shaped in fact with light fluffy icing. But my cooking skills was not as high standards as i wish them to be, but it was my first time baking! { With a little help from my father }
Comments?
(Source: iam-colorblind)
Imagine a world where there was no way to see your reflection. You could never see yourself. You had no way of knowing what you look like except to ask someone. What do you think the world would be like?
You would feel good simply based on how you feel, instead of how you look having effect over how you feel.
(Source: iam-colorblind)
